It's less than a month until my comic strip 'in SECURITY' starts, finally. Wohoo!!! I'm really excited (and scared to death) about that
I created a new Facebook page where I will share further details about the comic itself and it's characters. My old page will stay active a while longer as well. But from New Years onwards, the time when the comic official starts, I will start slowing down my Atras page and concentrate more on the new page.
I feel a bit silly talking like this, but believe me, 'in SECURITY' is really a big deal for me and I try my best to present it as good as possible :3
Anyway, here is the link to the new Facebook-page:
Would be great if you like me there
Isn't it funny how you sometimes start with something and in the end it morphs into something total different? That's how I feel about my OC Sedine.
She is the oldest OC I have. If I remember correct, I created her in 2010 on one of my first trips to the US. Back then she looked like this:
Well, you see it’s like a total different character compared to what she looks like nowadays. And believe me. In between there were way more than just one design-stop:
I can’t pin point when exactly I decided to change her design and her character. But I can somewhat recall why I did it.
First of all, when I came up with her I didn’t really know what I was doing. I just threw together some cool elements and out of that mood she arrises. However, I didn’t know what I wanted to do with her. Eventually I settled on that she was just my mascot...but that wasn’t very satisfying either.
As much as I liked her, I didn’t really enjoy drawing her by one point...
One day I decided to remove her wings and ears and turned Sedine into a human. On top of that, and to ensure she could still wear her bat-zipper outfit, I gave her a new occupation....a showgirl. Wohoo!!!
I think that was the point where I saw some sort of a story coming together. I started to give her sidekick Sam a purpose to be with her...as the broke assistant who had to babysit the spoiled show diva.
well, that story didn’t stuck in my mind for too long. Eventually I started toning down Sedine a bit (she was way too abusive and bitchy) and gave her a bit more gentle way to behave. A lot of revisions followed, I dropped the showgirl idea and instead created a one sided love story between a gal and a guy out of it.
The problem with the one sided love story idea was, these kind of stories have only a limited lifespan. I mean, an audience wants to see some progress eventually. That wouldn’t work for a strip, which is meant to run daily for who knows how long.
Well, therefore their little tragic love drama turned into a full blown urban comedy romance.
It’s fascinating to recall that whole development progress.
I think it not only shows how Sedine as character evolved, but also how I as a person and an artist grew. How unfocused and planless I was most of the time, until I learned how to plan out and set up things. But also how my interests and tastes have changed over the time. When I was younger I was totally into the fantasy and adventure genre. Although I still enjoy it here and there, I discovered my love for uplifting and home based romance comedy.
It may sound trashy but seeing Sedine evolve and change over the past six years is like reading an old travel log. And I’m not regretting any of those stops until this very moment...
...However, I hope That’s about it with the revisions and changes of Sedine tho. XD
…but sometimes it’s not up to you to decide that
Still two more months until the launch of my comic strip ‘in SECURITY’ and… well, I’m still working on it. XD
It’s a big deal for me, although it’s not my first comic.
I think the last comic I drew was a One Piece-Frobin fancomic back in 2008? ....brrr. You may be able to find it somewhere online....but if not, you didn’t miss anything. I’m not proud of it, although it was kinda fun back then
Well, I experienced how difficult and how time consuming it was to draw a comic... and how little the reward could be. Therefore, after my One Piece comic, I decided to give up on drawing comics. Secretly I was still dreaming of doing one again. But it was like dreams such as “what would I do if I become a Millionaire?”
I never gave up on drawing itself, don’t get me wrong. Drawing was a part of my life ever since I was a child. To give that up would be like giving up breathing.
So I was concentrating on another way to build an art career for the past years...
I discovered the joy of doodling into sketchbooks. Having characters doing all sorts of things, posing, cooking, playing around and so on. Soon I started to re-develop my OCs Sam and Sedine, thinking up little scenarios between them, etc. Barely any finished artwork came out of those doodle sessions, but I enjoyed doing it anyway.
A few people asked me if I plan to do a comic with my two characters thru out 2014-15, but I knew I would never do so. After all, my OC were a side project and I could not come up with the time nor a proper story to start making a comic.
It was my husband who changed my attitude. In 2015, when his cat of 12 years passed away, he got so sad and drunk. I don’t know what was speaking in him, but on that day he told me that he wanted to draw a comic strip with my characters. Well... I thought he was just babbling and didn’t really mean it.
Weeks later he convinced me of the comic strip idea, and we mapped out 20 strips, which were meant to be published as a little book and become part of my portfolio. Nothing more, nothing less.
However, we both discovered how much fun it was to write and draw in the comic strip format. So we started playing with the idea of continuing it beyond 20 strips.
We researched the market for comic strips, options of publishing, and developed the project to make it more attractive to a wider audience and make it possible to keep it going for years and years to come. We polished the characters, writing, art and throughout spring/summer we pitched it around within the US.
Well… sadly we couldn’t get it into print. BUMMER!!!
But our enthusiasm was still alive and we are still hot’n heavy to make this strip. Oorah!!!
Although we have a good amount paper and ink from previous projects, and the writing is set for at least two years (roughly 600 strips) + another two years are roughly outlined, it’s still an uphill battle. Time-wise and financially.
However, I’m very happy seeing this project come together and I’m thankful having such great support on my side. Although it’s questionable if we will get the needed audience and funding to keep doing this project, I will do my best no matter what!
Two more months to go...and I’m equally scared and excited. ^___^”
You know, there is a a good reason I choose my username ‘in-security’ for Deviantart.
On the one side, I wanted to get rid of my old account and my old username (it was just time to move on from that old image of mine ^^). Well, using my real name wouldn’t be so good. 'BeaR' is most likely already given on DA.
So I choose the title of the comic strip I’m working on: ‘in SECURITY’. After all, nearly everything I upload here is related to it. So, perfect
Well...it’s funny. My husband choose that name for this project about a year ago, when we started working on it. It has it’s origin in the occupation of one of the lead characters (being a security guard), being in safe hands (in safety/security) and of course the word ‘insecurity’ itself (most characters, if not all of them, have their own little troubles with it ^^”).
Back then as of today I still think the title is genius and I love the hell out of it.
What’s so funny about (or rather sad I should say), the title does not only fit my comic strip perfectly. It also fit’s me as a person and as an artist.
Although I try to be brave and full of self-esteem, by the end of the day I’m usually filled with self doubt.
Am I good enough? Am I doing the right thing? Is the art good enough? Is the story/writing original enough and are the characters appealing?
And most of, will people even care? Will it be ignored, praised or ripped to shreds?
It’s still about 10 weeks until the official launch of the strip. And while I’m excited to see it being published after over a year of prep-work....I’m also scared to death it will fail big time.
The real strange thing is, I see my work, I’m aware of my current skill level and how I can improve furthermore. So I'm really not fishing for praise and compliments in that matter.
But the self doubt still sits deep in my mind and won’t leave.
I really wonder how other artists deal with this kind of feeling. After all, I can’t be the only one who thinks that way...right? :/