Oh, insecurity, my good ol friend.

You know, there is a a good reason I choose my username ‘in-security’ for Deviantart.

On the one side, I wanted to get rid of my old account and my old username (it was just time to move on from that old image of mine ^^). Well, using my real name wouldn’t be so good. 'BeaR' is most likely already given on DA.

So I choose the title of the comic strip I’m working on: ‘in SECURITY’. After all, nearly everything I upload here is related to it. So, perfect

Well...it’s funny. My husband choose that name for this project about a year ago, when we started working on it. It has it’s origin in the occupation of one of the lead characters (being a security guard), being in safe hands (in safety/security) and of course the word ‘insecurity’ itself (most characters, if not all of them, have their own little troubles with it ^^”).

Back then as of today I still think the title is genius and I love the hell out of it.

What’s so funny about (or rather sad I should say), the title does not only fit my comic strip perfectly. It also fit’s me as a person and as an artist.

Although I try to be brave and full of self-esteem, by the end of the day I’m usually filled with self doubt. 

Am I good enough? Am I doing the right thing? Is the art good enough? Is the story/writing original enough and are the characters appealing?

And most of, will people even care? Will it be ignored, praised or ripped to shreds?

It’s still about 10 weeks until the official launch of the strip. And while I’m excited to see it being published after over a year of prep-work....I’m also scared to death it will fail big time.

The real strange thing is, I see my work, I’m aware of my current skill level and how I can improve furthermore. So I'm really not fishing for praise and compliments in that matter.
But the self doubt still sits deep in my mind and won’t leave.

I really wonder how other artists deal with this kind of feeling. After all, I can’t be the only one who thinks that way...right? :/